When I was first presented with the Lotus flower as my symbol, I believed I had seen a water lily in darkness when it should have been in the light. I thought this symbolised some terrible darkness in me that had to be dispelled. Later I realised that what I saw was a Lotus flower. The sacred white Lotus flower of Egypt is in fact a waterlily. It opens its flowers at dusk, so it is always open at night. I imagine, on a dark night with no moon, the white flower must shine as a beacon by reflecting any available light. So the white lotus, pure, spiritual and set apart, becomes a light in the darkness.

Almost twenty years ago, God gave me the message that I was a prophet. Since then I have wondered whether I imagined it. I have never seemed to get anywhere along the path I imagined a prophet should take. People don’t listen to my messages. The few people I have told about this message have largely disbelieved me. Prophets are not women who have no seemingly appropriate qualification. They are not newcomers with a husband and children, they are mighty men with staggeringly impressive qualifications who run mighty ministries and are held in very high regard by the church establishment.

Since being given the vision of the white Lotus at night I have had independent confirmation that I am a prophet. The person who confirmed this knew nothing about God’s original message. They merely asked God what my gifts were and He told them. I see this as God confirming the original message at a point when He has a new task for me: Lotus Christian Ministries.

The path to this message has been a long one. It has involved me being given many wonderful experiences with my beloved Father in heaven. From the moment I first accepted Jesus as my saviour, stood in the presence of God’s mighty light and heard his voice speak to me, through being shown my grandfather in heaven and seeing Satan stalking Christians in prayer and laughing at me from the shoulder of people I was ministering to. It has led me to write my thoughts down and save them on my computer, because I cannot preach and give them to people. It has led me through trying to understand how I was to fulfil a message God gave me in 2008 to “reach out to those stumbling in darkness”. It has led me through commencing my studies to become a counsellor. It has brought me through the wonderful revelation that my desire to walk in Jesus’ footsteps makes counselling the obvious career path to take, because He was our counsellor, the first, original and best.

All the theology courses I have completed, the few sermons I have been able to give, all my witnessing and writing had appeared until recently to be of no value. I found myself in churches Knox, the children and I had prayed long and hard about. We believed and still believe that these churches are /were where God wants us to be. My mistake was deciding that it was in these churches that I would be able to use my gifts.

So what relevance does my commentary about church membership have to Lotus Christian Ministries? Trying to understand why God placed me in the various churches that obviously didn’t want to use my gifts has led me to this place. I don’t think I would have seen the path God had laid for me if I hadn’t found myself searching God for answers about church membership. My gifts are to be used by God in His way and one of the ways I am doing this is by establishing this blog.

The psychologist Jung believed all people shared a deep, hereditary knowledge of symbols he called archetypes. He saw them as a deep expression of man’s spirituality. My main archetype is a white lotus. I have other archetypes as well. Of course, in common with other Christians, I have the white dove of the Holy Spirit. This is why the symbol of Lotus Christian Ministries, is a cross with a Lotus at the bottom the white dove flying inwards near the top.

My love in Christ,
Nan