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Psalm 35
I have not written a blog for several weeks. Usually I announce the break, but this one crept up on me. I was going away interstate to attend some conferences and visit my daughter. It had been my intention to continue writing my blogs, but time and internet connections prevented that. It is not to say I have not been thinking about what I should be writing. I have thought a lot about that. Many say I should have a stockpile of blogs written so I can just load one up at the appropriate time, but I have found that this lacks the immediacy of what I need to say. In some seasons of my life, God has given me the words to write in advance, so that I could do that, but not in the current season. How can I write about change and waiting, if I am not waiting on God to write each blog?
Psalm 35 is a wonderful psalm of change and waiting. David waited so long to come to the throne he had been anointed to occupy. He had been anointed with the change as a young man, but had to wait decades to come into that change. Yet he waited patiently and faithfully. The waiting allowed him to develop a great patience and faith in God. He trusted God and was prepared to wait.
I read this psalm over several days, pausing at moments that seemed important to meditate on. The first was in verse 3 “… say to my soul, “I am your salvation”.” NIV. At the end of verses where David is asking for God to intervene in a situation of attack, the focus is on God speaking to David’s soul “I am your salvation”. 
Meditate on those four words. The words contain a great stillness. A glimpse of the eternal. The majesty of God. Four simple words, yet overwhelmingly powerful. “I am your salvation”. No matter what obstacles we face, the essential truth still remains. God is our salvation through Jesus.
Try just sitting and speaking those words from God. Leave all other thoughts aside and just focus on those four words. What peace do they bring to you? What reassurance?
The words offer an opportunity to sit in the stillness that is God. You need never fear the stillness blocks change because change and waiting exist in this stillness. God’s change comes from the stillness and we wait in the stillness.
Perhaps what I am saying is a little strange? If so, I suggest sitting in the focus of those words and allowing that focus to drift to the voice between the words. To God as He brings us into His presence. This is where we need to be.

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Wait and don’t be afraid.

Judges 4,5 and 6.

So many doors have been opening to me this year. People are making themselves available to offer me assistance with my work. I am having increasing numbers of clients sent to me. Yet I hesitate to take the opportunities open to me.

Why is that?

I have been pondering that one for some time.
Today God asked me to listen to what my internal voice was saying.

It said:
I am afraid of change.
So I asked it why?
It replied, I am afraid of failing.
I am afraid I will go the wrong way
I am afraid of putting my head above the parapet where I will be less safe.

From the conversations I have with other people, I know these fears are not uncommon.

As I pondered these fears I was reminded of a story I heard a long time ago of two boys in the dessert. They were separated from their family and needed to step out across the dessert to return to them. One boy, despite his fears, stepped out into the dessert and found his family. The other remained in the shadow of a great rock and eventually turned into a rock. He never made it back to his family and remained forever alone and indecisive.

The understanding I have always had of that story is that no action is not an option. We can go forwards or backwards, but not remain still.

Change is scary. Familiar is safe, the new is not. Failure is hard, but sometimes that is what we have to do. If we trust God and follow Him, we are unlikely to go the wrong way. And if we do, He puts up barriers to lead us to where He wants us to be. And we learn from those barriers. So we need never fear going the wrong way. Putting your head above the parapet is potentially dangerous, but it also rewards you with great views. We have to learn to trust God to hold us in the dangerous moments, in the failures and in the successes too. He can’t bless us if we don’t trust Him and take that step of faith.

In the book of Judges there are two stories that illustrate the fear of taking that step of faith.

The first is the story of Deborah and Barak. Deborah was a prophetess. She went to Barak and told him God had instructed him to wage war on the Midianites who were suppressing the people of Israel. Barak was afraid to go and would only do so if Deborah was with him. She went with him but warned him that the victory over the Midianites would go to a woman. As she had warned, the Midianite leader was killed by a woman and all glory went to her.

Gideon wasn’t sure about taking the bold steps God asked him to. He tested God several times by putting out a fleece for God to make wet or dry on different nights. He did then step out in faith and become a great leader. But he at first hesitated.
These stories are great illustrations of being afraid. I would love to be a Deborah, but I suspect I am more like Barak and Gideon. I would prefer Deborah to come with me so I don’t have to do God’s task alone. And I would put out heaps of fleeces to ensure God was really asking me to do the task.

So I will persevere, feeling like Barak and Gideon, and wishing I was Deborah. And maybe some day I will learn to be her.




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