Posted By Nan
Have you every felt so overwhelmed by the things people are throwing at you that you can’t even find space to sit with God and find His peace?
I have been going through a time like that this past week. Even my nights are invaded by echoes of the day that invade my prayer time and really frustrate me.
There has been a lot of grief about the abuse I suffered as a child. This has been brought up by discussions I had with a school friend who asked me if I was thinking of going to our school reunion. I replied that I had no wish to visit the past because of the abuse I suffered at home and the bullying at school. She replied by telling me something about her own abuse. I was sad for what she had been through and sad that the veil of secrecy our parents trapped us into prevented us from drawing comfort from each other as children. Then I rejoiced that God had given both of us wonderful husbands who have been the best men to allow us to heal.
Then there was being caught up in small community organisation politics. For some reason I am the impartial one everyone wants to dump their gripes on. I have been overwhelmed by communications from people that amount to little more than gossip. God recently warned me to avoid being caught up in gossip and here was the gossip He warned me about. I can’t totally ignore it because some of it involves inappropriate behaviour that I have a responsibility to address. The cost of me addressing it is screaming abuse down a telephone line. And nobody wants that.
So I am sitting here feeling battered and bruised and wondering why the morning I took off to sit in the trees and relax and focus on God feels like it never happened.
And I am wondering what God wants me to write about when I can barely hear His voice for all the clamour.
God’s answer has been to write about this.
We all have times like this. Times when the goings on of the world are exhausting and overwhelming and there seems to be no way to get off the roller coaster.
As I wrote this, God whispered in my ear to turn to my favourite Psalm – Psalm 130. So I read it. As I read, God’s peace washed over me, cool and refreshing (we are in the middle of an autumn heatwave so that is very apt). And I am drawn back to the theme I have been writing on for the past few months about waiting for God. Waiting in the darkness.
I have placed Psalm 130 below. I ask you to read it and particularly pay attention to verse 6. May it bring you the peace you need.
 
Psalm 130 (NIV)
A song of ascents.

1 Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD;
2 O Lord, hear my voice. Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy.

3 If you, O LORD, kept a record of sins, O Lord, who could stand?
4 But with you there is forgiveness, therefore you are feared.

5 I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope.
6 My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning.

7 Israel, put your hope in the LORD, for with the LORD is unfailing love and with him is full redemption.
8 He himself will redeem Israel from all their sins.
 
 
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